Prayer for Suicidal Thoughts due to Extreme Difficulties 為受困迫而想死的意念祈禱
The Chinese version is after the English one.
中文版本在英文版本下。
Almighty Lord,
I am under heavy oppression, enduring great suffering. In front of me, it seems there is no way to go, and no way back either. I feel like I’ve entered a dead end, surrounded by various forces aiming at me, besieging me. Even though I’ve been confident in the past, facing the current dilemma, I feel completely incapable of changing it on my own. I lack the ability and courage to endure the consequences.
Oh God, I admit that I was thinking about killing myself for an escape. However, I still struggle because I have people I care about, and I don’t want to abandon them, causing them deep hurt. I also consider that after death, there might not be a guarantee of reaching heaven. I’m uncertain about what happens after death. Knowing that You are the God who governs all things, and feeling like everything else is unreliable now, I want to release control in Your presence and earnestly plead for Your salvation.
Lord, how insignificant is humanity! I have experienced that those close to me could betray and abandon me. A wave could wash away the essentials of my livelihood like water. All wealth, status, trusted friends, homes, honour… could vanish overnight. However, I will look to the Lord because, regardless of how the world may crumble, the Lord’s love and grace are always with those who fear Him. You are my refuge, my strength, and a constant help in times of trouble.
I will pray and declare Your words:
“No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. God is faithful, and He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.” (1 Corinthians 10:13)
I proclaim that I will take refuge under the shadow of the Almighty. Though I am only a drop in the ocean,
“Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care.” (Matthew 10:29)
In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I implore the Lord to open the windows of Heaven for me, make a way for me in the desert, part the Red Sea, and enable me to cross this crisis. I pray that You will show me the way and teach me how to handle the situation. I also ask You to prepare trustworthy and genuinely helpful individuals for me, so that I won’t be left without support when seeking assistance.
O Lord, I long to witness Your power and glory. I ask that You forgive my past sins (if any, please add your own content), and, in Your abundant mercy, rescue me and uphold me on the right path.
In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I declare that the lies from the evil one, such as “You are at a dead-end,” “You have no choice but death,” “It’s your destiny to die,” “Look, everything proves that you can only die,” “Only through death can you find relief,” __________ (Please fill in as needed) will all be shattered! These lies have no power over me, for the Lord says,
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:9)
“Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.” (Psalm 23:4)
I live within my limitations, unable to see the bigger picture, the end of life, or how You will unravel this situation. But “Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path.” (Psalm 119:105), and with every step I take, there will be guidance. I ask for Your help so that I may hear Your guidance with every step, leading me from death to life.
In the victorious name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I pray. Amen.
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為受困迫而想死的意念祈禱
至高上主：
我在重重的壓迫之下，極其煎熬。在我面前，好像沒有路可走，也沒有退路，我感到好像走進了死胡同，身邊有各種力量在狙擊我，把我圍困。即或過往曾有多自信，面對此刻的困境，我感到完全並非我的能力可以改變，我亦沒有能力和顏面去承受這一切的後果。
神啊，我想到大不了一死。然而，我仍掙扎，因為我仍有我所顧念的人，我不想撇下他們，深深傷害他們。我也想到死後未必能上天堂，我對死亡其實也沒有把握，死後我也不知道往哪裡去。我知道祢是掌管萬有的神，我現在什麼都好像靠不住了，我要在祢面前放手，將生命的主權交回祢手中，懇切求祢拯救我。
「神是我們的避難所，是我們的力量，是我們患難中隨時的幫助！
所以地雖改變，山雖動搖到海心，
其中的水雖匉訇翻騰，
山雖因海漲而戰抖，
我們也不害怕。」
(詩篇46篇1-3節)
主啊，人是何等渺小！我以為與我相好的人，可以背棄、出賣我。一個浪潮，可以把我僅有維生的東西像水一樣沖走。一切的財富、地位、親信、房屋、名譽… 也可以一夜間化為烏有。然而，我要仰望上主，因為不論環境如何天崩地裂，上主的慈愛和恩典都常與敬畏祂的人同在，是我的避難所，我的力量，我患難中隨時的幫助。
「你們所受的考驗，無非是人所承受得了的。上帝是信實的，祂不會讓你們遭受無法承受的考驗，在受考驗的時候，總會給你們開一條出路，讓你們能忍受得了。」(哥林多前書10章13節)
我要禱告，我要藏在全能上主的蔭下，我雖微小，但
「兩隻麻雀不是賣一個小錢嗎？但如果沒有你們父的允許，一隻也不會掉在地上。」(馬太福音10章29節)
奉主耶穌基督之名，我求告上主給我打開天窗，為我開闢道路，在沙漠開江河，把紅海分開，讓我能走過這次的危機。求祢為我指明方向，教我如何自處。又求祢預備可信賴、能真正幫助我的人，使我不致求助無援。
上主啊！我渴望得見祢的能力和榮耀。求祢赦免我過往所犯的過失 (如有，請自行填補內容________)，以祢豐盛的憐憫救助我，在正道上扶持我。
奉主耶穌基督的聖名，那些來自那惡者的謊言，諸如「你在絕路上了」、「除了死，你沒有選擇了」、「你死是活該」、「你看，所有事情都證明你只能死」、「只有死了，你才能得到解脫」、_____________ (請補上) 等等，通通要粉碎！這些謊言在我身上毫無權勢、毫無效力，因為主說：
「我的恩典夠你用的，因為我的能力是在人的軟弱上顯得完全。」(哥林多後書12章9節)
「我雖然行過死蔭的幽谷，也不怕遭害，因為祢與我同在，祢的杖、祢的竿，都安慰我。」(詩篇23篇4節)
我活在自己的限制中，看不見整個大局，看不見人生的終點，也不知道祢會用什麼方法來解開的困局。但「祢的話是我腳前的燈，路上的光。」(詩篇119篇105節)，我腳前的每一步，必有引領。求祢幫助我，每一步都能聽到祢的指引，帶我從死亡邁向生命。
奉主耶穌基督得勝名字而求。阿門。
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